The Gift of Time …
Whether you wear a wrist watch or have several clocks around the house or better still carry your mobile phone on you at all times, you will have noticed that time doesn’t stop for anyone. Even if we were to turn off our clocks we don’t possess the power to turn off time….
Time began the minute the world existed.
From the moment you were born into this world you had in common with every other person “TIME”.
By now most of us are already shaking our heads at how fast 2017 has taken off! It is approaching the end of February.
Traveling through 2016 felt as though it were on slow speed like a bad internet connection. So much pain and heart break filled the last half of that year for me and my kids. On so many occasions it truly felt like life was being incredibly unkind and cruel.
When you hurt it is only normal to feel that way.
Is it true that TIME heals all wounds?
I obviously can’t speak for everyone however I can speak for myself… Last year felt as though time for me was an enemy I was fighting.
I felt sad, angry and hurt for much of the last part of 2016.
It has taken everything for me to keep my head up and continue moving forward,
as what other choice do you have in these situations.
When life turns upside down and you are left with nothing (financially speaking) you must start again. No amount of time analysing the WHY’s of how unfair it was being left with nothing was going to help me.
My journey began in the Centrelink office asking for financial assistance as a single mum. They were surprisingly helpful on that first day I walked in empty on all levels. As helpful as they have been the money is only just enough to get by. There is no shopping till your dropping!
I’ve had to be very patient in terms of getting everything that I need. My family and friends have all been there in so many wonderful ways providing furniture to fridges in order for me to start again. My heart is filled with gratitude every time I think about what has been given to me.
Six and a half months have since passed from the first moment I drove myself back into Canberra not comprehending what had just happened to my life. Despite the ups and downs it has been TIME which has been consistent throughout.
In this New Year TIME has been moving me forward in various positive ways. Determination and patience has now provided me with a job. The location and hours are so ideal that it is as though someone tailored the job perfectly for me. While it is only a 3 month contract there is the hope that it gets extended.
Life is looking up!!!
The TIME which has filled up the past few months has been a gift of progressive healing. All of the vulnerabilities and pain have been turning into confidence and happiness. Time itself has shown me the deep cracks that were in my life, the ones I wasn’t aware of.
I was broken in my marriage.
Anything broken is vulnerable and weak.
I was weak!
Time is giving me the opportunity of becoming whole again. As I see more clearly how impacted I was in the situation I was stuck in for so long, it has helped me to recognise that while I am not perfect, no one deserves to be treated as rubbish.
Time has a way of showing the truth! When you are in the middle of messes it can be hard to get clarity. Having been away from the mess has shown me the difference of abnormal living to normal living. The best word to describe abnormal living would be the word “toxic”.
I’ve had TIME to begin figuring out who I am all over again.
The real me!
The real me was always pushed down and treated with very little value and respect. There may have been occasions in which the ‘real me’ made an appearance yet it was always short lived.
Let TIME be your friend.
If you’re a young person looking to get married take all the TIME you need to make sure you are choosing someone who is going to treat you with respect and value. Don’t be in such a rush that you ignore the most important parts which keep a relationship healthy and most importantly is healthy for YOU.
Whether a relationship was not all that bad or a relationship was toxic there is still a process to journey through once there is a break up.
This week I’ve experienced the raw emotions returning on a few occasions with deep cries that were hard to stop.
It took me by surprise!
One may think that the worst is over however the emotions and heart are in need of time to grieve and heal. While our routines are changed and we no longer live with that person our emotions and heart are still the same. There are no quick 5 minute microwave fixes in restoring those wounds.
As frustrating as time can be depending upon the situation you find yourself in, time itself can be an enemy or a friend.
We need to get through the bad stuff to get to the good stuff!
Break ups often appear to happen instantly yet it takes a lot of time to get to that point. In much the same way we can expect a lot of time in order to recover from the break up.
I’ve yet to discover whether there is ever a full and complete healing. Does one ever truly get over a broken marriage 100%?
Life can Hurt so I’m keeping it Real…..