Who, what, where, when and how should we be spending our time?
What used to be my focus years ago has changed. In fact I have noticed through various stages of life the focus shifts. We go through events that change our thinking and our priorities.
An event that will always and forever bring sadness to my heart is my mothers passing. It will be 2 years this November 2023 that she transitioned into another dimension. When a big event such as someone’s passing takes place you change. It doesn’t matter what people say to you, or how time heals all wounds, you change. It is a given. Its automatic.
Your mindset changes, what was once a concern fades into the distance of heart break. I often think about mum and imagine what she would say to me in some of the difficult situations I have been going through. I imagine that if she were still alive she would not focus her precious time on people that are only out there to make sure their agenda is the priority. She would not waste her time on people that don’t listen to what you have to say. People that demand respect but don’t even consider your feelings or thoughts in any situation. They are the type of people that I no longer have time for.
I used to be someone that thought love and compassion is all you need to get through life. Sorry to state the facts; its not. YES I will always have love and compassion for people. BUT what happens when people who expect that from you treat you as though you are their toy. Pick you up when they are bored. Throw you aside when they have had enough. Put you in situations to play the part they want you to play even if you don’t like it?
This is where self respect comes into the picture and you have to decide what your willing to let slide. What are you willing to compromise to allow this person to be in your life? If what they expect from you doesn’t agree with you then don’t conform. Don’t be the puppet in their hands to be mishandled.
Think for a moment?
That person, would they allow you to treat them that way? Of course not!!!! They know how to hold their own and so should you. Why should you be the one to lower your standards only to become angry, hurt and unhappy.
It’s difficult to stand up to yourself as it means people will leave. They won’t like it. They will find others to puppeteer and control. The worst part is the people I am talking about are usually those closet to you, like family or friends. That is why it is hard to step up and say NO.
How long do you let that person disrespect you, push you down and humiliate you.
Does it really matter that the person is no longer in life? What purpose does it serve if they are not in it for the intended purpose, one of mutual respect, kindness, consideration and support. If they are unwilling to step up and acknowledge their part in the unhealthy relationship why allow them a place in your life.
Life is valuable and I know my mum would agree. She would tell me to hang on to the people that love you and respect you. The people who are willing to admit their mistakes and take accountability. She would say don’t waste a second thought on people who are heartless and calculated in their efforts to be in your life.
It is a sad reality we all have to face, letting people go and being willing to come to terms with the fact that you may never see them again.
The times I have battled with the idea of never seeing that person again I ask myself , OK if you want that person in your life are you willing to lower your standard and be continually disrespected?
My answer to that is a big NO.