Sometimes I have wondered how much further I would have been in life had I been content with who I was. Every stage of my life has involved a battle or a struggle. Meaning that nothing has been without a huge shift in my thinking and believing. Sometimes I would take one step forward and then find myself five steps back! As I mentioned in an earlier blog it was more comfortable to believe negatively about myself than positively. Reverting back to what felt comfortable was my excuse every time I felt challenged inside. So in other words if I decided to take a step in some direction that was new once it started to touch those triggers inside I would QUIT. No one likes feeling pain it hurts and sometimes it can be incredibly scary. So in order to avoid pain we retreat! I retreated in so many situations.
As I have been journeying along this path of freedom each different stage has allowed me to grow more and persist in the difficult areas without quitting. When I was in high school I performed very bad in maths and was average in most other subjects. Had someone told me back then that I would take on a University course I would have laughed out loud (LOL)…. It has even taken me by surprise that I have gotten very good marks in maths and statistic units so far whilst studying Psychology. It is amazing what you can accomplish when you are desperate and willing to deal with issues of the heart. When everything is still sensitive and broken it is hard to move forward in life, the brokenness locks you into the past and keeps you there. Have you noticed how young children are so free? They usually don’t take “no” for an answer. They are happy and excited to learn and try new things without reservation. Then life happens and for some it knocks all of that enthusiasm out of them! We do live in a world filled with opportunities to be hurt. Don’t be defined by past issues take courage and believe in the real you.
Be courageous today and start thinking about what holds you back? While often I have wondered where I could be today had I not been so broken, I realised some time ago that I can make the most of what I have experienced in an effort to bring others freedom too! That too has been another step for me in busting through mindsets that would like to say “you can’t”, to “oh yes I can and why not?”….