Self-doubt …… I don’t like you ……
Self doubt has a habit of performing routine checks unannounced. Self doubt likes to interrupt the process of moving forward. Self doubt sends niggling thoughts your way with no particular schedule. It just turns up!!!
It seems as though you get through some super hard stuff in life and just as you think your on your way to an amazing future filled with sunshine and lollipops, self doubt starts to rain on your party. It can start with a single negative episode. Whether it be at work and you feel as though you are not performing your best on a given day and the world suddenly IS flat. Self doubt attempts to hijack any confidence you had in yourself.
Perhaps the bills $$$ are pouring in like large rain drops and you have no way of earning any more than you already do…this is super frustrating especially when you are the only income earner in the household. As a single parent on one income all you need is for the X to not do their part OR worse, have left you with debt you have no way of repaying and suddenly life which appeared to be doing well OK financially is going into slow motion again.
It is not easy to push past self doubt when circumstances are lining up with those niggling negative thoughts!
In July this year I will have been travelling the journey of single parent for two years. I started with nothing financially and have been climbing slowly since. I have obstacles to get through which are not my doing and are a bit of a hindrance to my moving forward. In these moments when it is ever so tempting to throw in the towel and wonder what the point is, I cant help but wonder what options do I have?
HOW do you just throw in the towel when you have come so far?
As a single parent there are moments of feeling completely alone despite the people you have in your world. Its all up to you to keep motivated and push through the barriers and obstacles.
This can be exhausting.
While there are areas of my life that are moving forward at a steady pace I am still faced with self doubt when circumstances are not as favourable as one would like them to be.
Perhaps there are areas in your life right now which are causing self doubt.
At the very least after reading my blog you are now aware of at least one other person who is also fighting self doubt.
My guess is that the two of us are not alone.
I don’t like interruptions at the best of times and I certainly am not a fan of self doubt.
I prefer progress over pain and yet it seems there will always be pain in order to progress.
As I have been whispering to myself lately to just keep going, I whisper to you today to do the same.
Keep going, one step in front of the other my friend!